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what are women most scared of?

Dear soulsister,

I thought I would take up each of the powers I talked about yesterday. I was thinking about it in meditation this morning and I felt it would be good to do it for you and also for me!

I’ve been aware of these 8 powers for some time, decades actually, but I never really bothered with them too much. However someone showed me a book by Anthony Strano the other day The Quest for Well-Being – using your 8 powers, and for some reason I got interested.

So, the first one is the Power to Face.

At this stage in my journey I am really doing a ‘push’ forward in getting to where I want to be. I REALLY want to be that perfect person I’ve wanted to be since as far back as I can remember.

So, when I was sitting in meditation this morning I got to thinking about this and how I can use the Power to Face. I’m presently in the stages of getting contributors for the soulsisterwisdom magazine. I have no idea (well a bit of an idea – but not as much as I really need and would feel comfortable about!) as to how I’m going to pull this off as I’ve never done it before, and certainly not with the technology we have today. Major learning curve!

Anyway, I was going through this feeling of really needing to let go of the responsibility of it and getting into the feeling that it’s His (God’s) thing. So, he has to get it done. I’ll do the donkey work, but it is his thing. So that’s ok. Then I got on to thinking about this Power to Face and how helpful it could be, in that it enables me to really face what I need to face inside me in order for me to change.

So I practiced a little and then (I had a few things going on – cooking something on the stove top importantly!), I moved. For no other reason than I was feeling anxious and I couldn’t settle. I remembered the silent retreat weekend where I learnt about the Vipassana meditation and how our instructor explained that by sitting and breathing through the pain or the discomfort, whether physical, mental or emotional we would get through it by facing it. She told us that whenever anything gets uncomfortable our response is usually to move away from it, therefore never dealing with it.

I came back to where I was before I moved and I contemplated on the ability to face and yes, it really is a power. It enables me to see the ‘enemy’. Size it up and really get to know it. If I’m turning or moving away all the time, what I need to face is just a blur or a niggle somewhere inside that will never go away unless I face it and deal with it. Pretty logical really!

At this point I got excited and I felt I had to explore this more, hence this piece. AND THEN, I was just sitting there trying to face, and then I was thinking, what am I really trying to face here? What am I really trying to see? And it came over me – what I need to face is ME – my true self, my real self. I don’t need to face what isn’t me, i.e. the ‘enemy’ at all, I need to face what IS me. That’s what I’m running away from! ME!

And then I remembered that famous quote by Marianne Williamson….

Our deepest fear is not that we areFacing is looking into the mirror of our heart.  And what is in the mirror of our heart?  Truth, love, peace, happiness, beauty, fantasticness.

So, facing problems, obstacles etc is not actually about seeing the problem or obstacle at all, its more about seeing and feeling the greatness, strength, ability, qualities in us that will get us through, over, around, or past whatever is in our way.

As Marianne Williamson says, “It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us”.  As women we HAVE become scared of our light. We don’t want to see it, name it, own it, or show it to the world.  We want to hide it and deny it.  We find it hard to be anything other than what we’ve been ‘taught’ and told to be.  And yet the voice inside us tells us we are not that at all.

The Power to Face liberates the essence of woman.  It challenges our hearts to beat.  It challenges our minds to expand.  It challenges our lungs to breathe.  And it challenges our bodies to move.  The Power to Face challenges us to be ourselves – our true selves.

The Power to Face challenges us to step up and be who we really are.

much love,

Rebecca Signature

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a new journey of letting go

“You will find that it is necessary to

Dear soulsister,

Lately I’ve been thinking about the idea of ‘letting go’. I recently read an article about a man who had been suffering from tinnitus. I have tinnitus, so I was interested.

A Chinese medical doctor who included psychological therapy in her treatments had written the article. She told the man that the tinnitus was a result of the anger that he harbored in himself about a family incident. She treated him with Chinese medicine and counseled him for two months to help him let go of the anger, hurt and bitterness he was holding on to. After two months the tinnitus went. He had completely let go of it all.

So, I too have been practising letting go. It is an interesting journey. For in order to let go, one really has to LET GO. Of even the subtlest of strings. To let go, I have to first of all FEEL the pain and the hurt and the anger that I’m storing, not only inside of me (the soul) but also inside of every cell in my body. There will be a specific place where I hold on to the pain, whether its my shoulder or my gut, chest, or throat. But I will be holding it in every other cell in my body as well – it just isn’t obvious.

Its hard to face pain. Its much easier to distract myself – turn on the TV, reach for some comfort food, get busy, phone a friend, go to bed – anything, but sit with the pain. And we’ve become very good at distraction and diversion, perhaps because its so easy and readily available. But the cost of not facing what needs to be changed deprives us of quality and in some cases, quantity of life.

An interview with an elderly couple one night at the end of the news many years ago has always stayed with me. They were celebrating a significant anniversary of their marriage and the journalist asked the wife why she thought many marriages failed these days. Her answer was “people don’t take the time to relax and just think anymore”.

We’ve entered a spinning cycle of busy, busy, busy, somewhere along the line. We’ve gotten busy and gotten tired and stressed. We’ve caused problems in our relationships and our health. Instead of stopping, thinking, talking, sorting things out, we’ve gotten busy and gotten tired and stressed. We’ve caused problems in our relationships…..and the cycle has repeated and repeated over and over again.

Instead of taking time out to deal with the things that really need to be dealt with – to sort things out, to understand, to apologise, to forgive…..we’ve just ignored it, denied it, internalized the pain and carried on.

Then we get sick or we get tinnitus. And tinnitus is REALLY annoying! 99.9% of the time I’m able to ignore it, and have done for years. I decided to do that because otherwise it would have driven me crazy.

But now, I’m going to try and do something about it. It would be good to be free from it and just hear beautiful silence. Plus, I’ve come to realize that if my ears are being affected by what I’m holding on to, then the rest of my body is also.

I’m loving the feeling of letting go. It’s a feeling of complete separation of the soul and the body. Where both the soul and the body are challenged to deal with what they each have to deal with, alone – without the support and familiar feeding in of the experiences of the other.

The soul is having to face the heart and deal with the deep seated feelings and swirling psychological and emotional pain within it, that may not even be able to be named. The body is having to face physical pain in all different places and its having to learn to accept, relax and allow balance to be restored.

All of this can feel quite strange and uncomfortable. But that’s what growing pains are like.   And when I see this as growth it gives me the strength to keep going.

Otherwise there can be no getting off the merry-go-round and running through the countryside, hair streaming freely in the wind.

Have a lovely day.

When I let go of what I am, I become

much love,

Rebecca Signature